A Picture I Took By My Bus Stop (I will have to look up the name)

A Picture I Took By My Bus Stop (I will have to look up the name)
I think these are Clematis (but don't quote me!) - This picture was taken by my bus stop

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Sigh...If Only...or What Could Have Been

No I'm not insinuating I could have been one of the contenders to marry Prince William but when I got married I thought I had married my prince charming but let's just say it didn't turn out well. 

Poor Princess Diana.  We had a lot in common.  We married and divorced at about the same time - give or take a couple of years - I have one son who's about Prince William's age too.  I even wore the same dress style she wore.  If I ever learn how to scan, I'll upload a picture of myself on that happy day.  And it was a happy day. 

I am very happy for Prince William.  I hope he and his Kate will be very happy together, but I knew this day would bring back many sad memories for me for it would remind me of my own failure.  My marriage could have been made in heaven, instead it deteriorated quickly into hell.  I have many wonderful memories, don't get me wrong.  But they ended too soon   My ex passed away in 2009.  We made peace at the end.  Perhaps in our next life we will appreciate each other more.

I was devastated when Princess Diana died.  My marriage bitterly broke up at the same time hers was in its last throes but I was happy when she started remaking her life.  She was young and beautiful and soon she would forget her heartache.  It gave me hope that my own life could be rebuilt.  It broke my heart when she died but I'm glad to say I triumphed and emerged victorious. 

When I finally got around to seeing the video of the wedding at about 9pm, I shed a few tears.  Of course nowadays I can't just do one thing.  I have become the queen of multi-tasking.  I watched it on CNN while using my exercise bike. Pathetic, isn't it? I shed a few tears (and hopefully a few pounds) for what could have been - Sigh.

1 comment:

  1. We all can look back on the "what if" and "why", but that's all part of learning, trials, and triumphs are hard won.

    You came out victorious. Good for you! That's what counts, now, dry your tears and get back on the treadmill of life.

    Cheers, Lorelei